6 weeks ago I wrote THIS post about how I was going to give up alcohol indefinitely, and at the very least, give up getting tres boozey on a weekend, so I can lead a less hungover, healthier and ultimately more productive life. Well, throughout that time I have begun to enjoy the benefits of this positive lifestyle change, and also the disappointment that saying ‘so-long’ to the Sauvignon doesn’t always equal feeling instantly amazing (although this might have something to do with our children’s LACK OF SLEEP lately).
Here is how I’m feeling several weeks in…
I am certainly feeling SO much better in this area! Now that I’m not suffering from the weekly (or more often) fuzzy head, I am much less grumpier, and therefore suffer much less guilt that I am not giving the children the attention that they crave and deserve on these wasted days. I am definitely more ‘on-the-ball’, and getting more done, be it with Freddie and Sasha, house-wise, blog-wise, business-wise. I really feel like I have gained a whole extra day every week, and my previously ‘hungover’ time is no longer spent counting down the hours to bedtime! I don’t have the guilt that I’ve spanked a day away when I could be doing something useful.
One of my other main reasons for giving up boozey nights, was that I was starting to get really anxious the day after (this one is really hard to explain!), and I haven’t felt like this at all. So mentally, yes, I am feeling stronger already. I no longer have any uneasy feelings about what I might have said or done the night before, and I know that I have much more clarity in what I am feeling/thinking/saying, which in turn makes me feel more confident, decisive, and hopefully a better person to be around.
Possibly my biggest disappointment here, but it is still early days and I need to remember that! Whilst I am not overweight, I think I was secretly hoping to lose a few ‘booze pounds’, but sadly this hasn’t happened yet, probably because for the moment I have replaced wine with tea and too much cake! I will be cutting right down on unhealthy treats now I’m back from holiday, although I still think a bit of cake every now and again isn’t going to do me harm. Especially in comparison with when you end up eating the entire contents of your fridge the morning after the night before! I think my skin is looking a little better, and my face isn’t as puffy. When I look in the mirror san-makeup (not always the prettiest of sights!), my skin is a lot more ‘glowy’ pre-putting my BB cream on, and I’m sure this must be to do with the lack of booze. The whites of my eyes also look a lot more sparkly – #bonus.
I am a bit annoyed that I still don’t have loads of energy, but I’m sure this is to do with the fact the kids have been waking in the night again (“I need a WEEEEEEEEEEEE” shouted at you at 3am from an adjoining bedroom is no one’s friend), and also starting their day at 5.30am. I was so tired the other Saturday, using the TV as a crutch and counting down the hours until they slept, that I thought to myself that I may as well have been hungover. Which is rubbish, and you don’t even get the wine-infused fun-times from the night before to make it easier.
Which brings me to…
I still can’t decide how I feel about this one, although I’m realising that it is often the company and the situation that makes a great night out, as opposed to any sauce consumed. Whilst I never think anyone is ‘boring’ if they don’t drink, I wonder if I myself, may have become a bit of a party-pooper, as I seem to be less up for going out generally. And whilst I don’t miss all the crap and potential hazards that come from a big, boozey night out (dodgy cab rides, sprained ankles, remembering where you live etc), I do miss the anticipation of one. The messaging and chatting to friends during the day, how buzzing you feel on the way to the pub on a Friday night, those first fuzzy glasses of wine whilst you catch up on gossip and put the world to rights… I am missing that. I’ve still been out a fair bit- dinners, the theatre and lunches, which have been ace, and I’m always glad once I’m home and tucked up in bed by midnight, but I’m hoping I can become a bit more of a tee-total party animal. Adam and I went to a lovely wedding reception the other week, and it was in a great venue with friendly people, but by 9.30pm I was clock-watching as everyone else got more pissed, and by 9.45pm I was en-route home to relieve my Mum from babysitting, whilst I was happy for Adam to stay on partying. I may be saving a shed-load of money not drinking, but I would like to up for some later partying too!
So…overall I am still feeling pretty good about my sobriety decision so far, and I am 100% benefiting from it. I guess like any big life changes it will take some getting used to.
I am looking forward to attending Blogfest this weekend with clear eyes and the ability to remember conversations with other people!
Have you done ‘Sober October’, or have you stopped drinking too? How did you find it/ how are you finding it?